MaiReNe....

It all started here...

2009-08-09T14:44:00.000-04:00

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are many things about yourself that you
didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared because
you barely know where you are now. You start realizing
that people are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to aren't
exactly the greatest people you have ever met,
and the people you have lost touch with are some of the
most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or
insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job ... and it is not even close to what
you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are
looking for a job and realizing that you are going to
have to start at the bottom and that scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more
than usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly
adding things to your list of what is acceptable and
what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then
the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest
force of your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the
past is drifting further and further away, and there
is nothing to do but stay where you are or move
forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how
someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in
bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent
enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you
love someone but love someone else too and cannot
figure out why you are doing this because you know that
you aren't a bad person.

You suddenly feel unhappy with life and the lifestyle that may have provided you with happiness for many years.
You feel bored with people and things that may have been of interest to you before.
You suddenly feel a need for adventure and change.
You suddenly desire for a new and passionate, intimate relationship.
You get so confused about who you are and where you are going.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends
about the same topics because you cannot seem
to make a decision.

You worry about money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would
be great, right now you'd just like to be a
contender!

We are in our best of times and our
worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure
this whole thing out.

Prelude to Parting

2009-08-03T14:48:00.000-04:00

Prelude to a Parting

By Vincent Coscolluela

(Sunday Inquirer Magazine, 10.19.2003)

I would like to walk with you
all over again, through all the tree-filled places
we knew, the ground that once knew us,
and sit on the rock that was ours.
I would like us to see again
a clear sky that never seemed so clear, to feel
the way leaves feel when they fall. A moment so long,
everything can be said in two words, or three.

All I want is a perfect day

so I can leave you without leaving you behind,
where promises, like photographs,
would keep the distance close.
So trees would sway to a remembered wind.
I would like to leave you a world
so slow, time’s voice would be that of the infinite
silence of stone. A place where our walk ends
where we began. Where falling leaves never fall at all.

i found a reason.

2007-10-27T11:37:00.000-04:00

Oh I do believe
In all the things you say
What comes is better than what came before

And youd better come come, come come to me
Better come come, come come to me
Better run, run run, run run to me
Better come

Oh I do believe
In all the things you say
What comes is better that what came before

And youd better run run, run run to me
Better run, run run, run run to me
Better come, come come, come come to me
Youd better run

happy 5th anniversary!

2007-03-28T11:26:00.000-04:00

yay. im just glad. uber. i'm inlove haha *_*
i love youu babe!
thanks for the pink carnation flowers, black forest cake and butterfinger chocolates!
je t'aime!
look how happy i am! hehe

03.28.02

HAPPY 5th ANNIVERSARY babe!

yay

2007-03-23T07:12:00.000-04:00

hiya! im happy. uber. i passed pathophysiology! yay! half in my class did not pass .. oww =[ but im lucky !

2007-03-14T10:48:00.000-04:00

There are many obstacles to overcome in relationships and the secret to long lasting relationships has to do with the ability of both people to overcome these together. If one person is not confident enough in the relationship, then the relationship probably won't last. One need to find that someone who is confident enough to stick with us no matter what. Life is not always on the up side, and we need someone who'll be with us when we're down as well. We may have already found this person, and perhaps we haven't. Yet no matter what, we cannot lose in this situation. =]

=[

2007-03-14T10:47:00.000-04:00

Love is simply not enough to hold two people together. Have you ever felt like the whole world is trying to bring your relationship down? - i do. =[

i love you

2007-03-14T10:44:00.000-04:00

you will never be replaced babe. never.

yay

2006-07-30T06:10:00.000-04:00

i was able to buy a crystal case for my unit ;) damn i'm sorta happy *enough* i was able to buy a bally dangly for that cellphone.. hmm what else?! oh yeah robbie and his sistahs got my lil gifts for them.. *silly bro. he gave those 2 charriols to his sis.. haha he thought it was really for them. i like the earrings oh maii oh yeah i did bought a new earrings damn it was sooo fab!!! a goldiee dangly and a silver one with a stud ;)

<3>

good times

2006-07-23T07:28:00.000-04:00

hi.. i have to tell alot of things here i mean lotsa okaii.. so yeah yesterday

11:30pm---> i woke up at this time (didnt go to skewl) nice gurl

---> texted kacy i found out she's at glorietta so i decided to go coz i wanna go to the mall and shop

12:00pm---> took a bath

---> ate lunch

1:00pm ---> off i go to the mrt

.............so yeah i arrived at g4 by 2pm met kacy and pot at the freeway shop then off we go to i forgot the store's name.. looked to diff. stuffs found a fluffy pen and i liked it so i kinda buy it for noreen's bday so yeah walked and walked .. finally gina, lois texted them and off we met them at the activity grounds sorta.. i wanna buy a new havaianas so we went to all flipflops i bought the metallic blue havaianas. off we go to nbs store bought an ink for the printer went to herbench bought some gifts for frends then went to look around for some flipflops *agen* i did find a good fliplops with beads on it ;) metallic agen bronze i kinda like it so i buy it haha. then what else ?? hmm then oh yeah we also ate at the world chicken as usual ordered asian noodles and espanol rice with grilled chicken and mai ultimate fave.. ranch bbq sauce then we went to starbucks coz they wanna smoke *not me* and to drink some frap hang in there for awhile then off we go to the grill. drriink some light beer ahaha i did! but damn sucha loser i cant even consume the whole 1 bottle so yeah i have lotsa pixos ima post it soon ;) enough ofthis.. arrived home at 7:30pm then..... time to dress up mai for another gimik.. noreen's birthday

9:30pm---> went to Packo's grill

happy coz i'm not the 1st one who arrived there... the bday gal noreen so yeah i gave her my gift and stories go on we talked and talked until finally jerome, janro, jepoy, jayson, daniel and allen arrived ahuh finally then talked bout stuffs im also talking to robbie thru text so there goesthe kamustahan times.. questions like when he'll be back.. ahaha the never ending questions.. so yeah djoan and karrie arrived then chris did.. so we talked talked... iced tea sisig tofu and pork cocktail calamares.. more on *inuman* yeahh so drank tequilla i sorta dont know how to do that 1 shot.. damn ahaha so yeah i went home at past 1am i think so thats it ima post the pictures later on ;) bye

i had a gooood time

P.S. when my mom found out bout my havaianas she was like OMG too expensive for that plain slippers buying that thing for 800 bucks

<3>

videofon

2006-07-21T10:29:00.000-04:00

talking to mai xiao.xiao
he got the video fon finally
awww superr tnx fer that love ;)
cant wait to use that damn
i miss you love

<3 mai

damn rught

2006-07-20T07:25:00.000-04:00

awwwwwwwwwww. mai gahhd its been awhile yeahh?! yepp so wat shudi do bout this?! im sorta wat?! damn *speechless* prettyy hungry eh! damn

The Magic of Love

2005-08-20T03:34:00.000-04:00

Love is like magic

And it always will be.

For love still remains

Life's sweet mystery!!

Love works in ways

That are wondrous and strange

And there's nothing in life

That love cannot change!!

Love can transform

The most commonplace

Into beauty and splendor

And sweetness and grace.

Love is unselfish,

Understanding and kind,

For it sees with its heart

And not with its mind!!

Love is the answer

That everyone seeks...

Love is the language,

That every heart speaks.

Love can't be bought,

It is priceless and free,

Love, like pure magic,

Is life's sweet mystery!!

- Helen Steiner Rice -

Daydream Delusion

2005-08-19T03:24:00.000-04:00

Limousine eyelash

Oh baby with your pretty face

Drop a tear in my wine glass

look at those big eyes

See what you mean to me

sweetcakes and milk shakes

I am a delusion angel

I'm a fantasy parade

I want you to know what i think

Don't want you to guess anymore

You have no idea where I came from

We have no idea where we're going

lodged in life

Like branches in the river

flowing downstream

caught in the current

I carry you

you'll carry me

That's how it could be

Don't you know me?

Don't you know me by now?

Thoughts of you

2005-08-12T07:13:00.000-04:00

We gazed at the stars,
Imaginary ones will do,
Whatever it takes
Just to be with you.

Wrapped in your arms
Our heartbeats combine,
So close together,
Our souls inertwine.

My love for you grows
With each passing day,
I never thought to love
One this way

The dreaded day has come
To say goodbye
But our love will last
It is obvious why.

-SOmeOne-

2005-08-11T08:18:00.000-04:00

when i picked my someone
i wasn't sure who it would be
for there were so many someones
to pick from u can see
someone that i look for
when i'm scared and i'm alone
someone that would help me
make a safe and happy home
someone who'd make faces
just so i would smile
someone to stand by me
whenever life's in denial
someone that would forgive me
if i'd done something wrong
someone who is happy
whenever we get along
someone i can walk with arms together,
down life's beach
someone that'd be my teacher
and someone i could teach
there's so many someones
but it's not too hard to choose
i know i chose the right someone
if that... someone is you!

...oh right! i didnt do this one... haha its robbie who did this :D